Changes Changes all around !!!

Dear Baby... I will tell you one secret today. Your dad never was the one to get tied to a marriage. He did not want to get married just for the reason that his kids would climb on his bike and scratch the bike's petrol tank :):) !!!!!!!
After 7 yrs of meeting him he never changed this attitude until today. Today we were talking of how to take you out in a two wheeler when you are growing up and guess what he told me.. Me and my kid will go in my bike and I dont care even if he / she scratches the petrol tank!!!!!!
His bike is his first wife and I come second and to hear him talking like this was a real miracle :)
He is already planning for your two wheeler license and your adventure trips with him...

We are eagerly waiting for your little one who is going to change our lives forever. We ( I and your day) do not think much about future and get worried about it unnecessarily and hence we are really looking forward to welcome this change in your life which you would be bringing.

Just praying that you would come to us safely so that we can show our gratitude to you for coming into our lives. you have already brought so many changes for us and we are hoping for more good changes....

23 weeks 2 days .....We are sailing smoothly

My Last scan report was a minor cause of concern as it told that my baby does not have enough space in his/ her home to do its antics . I was worried about it and my doctor advised several set of tablets and nutrients.

Today I got the wonderful news that everything is going fine and that my baby is growing perfectly and no need of further worries or tensions...Yay!!! Baby we did it!!! We both ate well and took our medications correctly..

Now all we have to do is to wait for that day to meet each other... You should have seen your papa's face when he felt your first kick !!!! He loved it..

Every day I hear your papa talking to you and he says he wont involve mummy in these chit chats and that it is secret between both of you :):) He is ready to spoil you the moment you come out. He says spoiling is my job and repairing is mom's job...

Love you both very much !!!!! Grow well young one.. Im getting really impatient now to see you :)

My karate kid started Kick boxing - 21 weeks

It was few days after I completed 18 weeks, I felt the first flutter ..At first i did not really recognize it..Then it happened again.. I was stunned...My colleague who was sitting next to me was looking at me oddly seeing my stunned expression :) I told him " My baby kicked me !!!!" I could not control my happiness....
It was a great feeling...I felt an unexplainable joy and proudness.....It wasa great moment and I would remember it forever....
Now by each day kicks are becoming a regular thing and growing stronger... oh my baby you dont know how much your dad want to feel your kick.. so when you become a bit stronger i will let you kick him :))

You should have seen his expression when he listened to your first heart beat..It was priceless. You gave us a scare many a times and we had to rush to scanning center. Waiting for our turn to get scanned..long hours like eternity ..And when our chance came we were praying for you my little darling...And then when we hear your heart beat we cannot express our joy :):) it almost brought tears to my eyes!!

I cant wait to see you dear!!!!! Grow strong..Eat well like your mummy :)

18 weeks..........

After a series of doctor's visits , I came back to bangalore on Sunday 17th Oct. Doctors (well.. I have 2 to 3 doctors for me as they are all my Mom'z friends ) explained to me what to do and what not to do. They did the routine scanning and pronounced that my baby is growing strong and without any problems..I was praying for that only...
My family said that I should be thinking of good things now...This would mean that I should shut my mouth when someone jumps infront of our car while driving,and also no scoldings to Auto Rickshaw Drivers who behaves meanly and so on....God!!!!! It is really difficult...I know that my baby is studying each and every words I have uttered till now and would use it against me first :)
In any time now,I should feel the first movement of my darling...Waiting eagerly now..They said it would be a flutter but I know it would be a full swing kick for me which says "Mama..Im here..so you better watch what you say and what you eat!!!! Make me strong and I will kick you" :) :)

3 and a half months......(14 weeks)

Some times Im scared.....Scared as to whether my baby is fine or not....As I crossed 3rd month, all early problems vanished just like that and my appetite returned to normal.Now Im worried why I do not have those difficulties..Because that way I was knowing that this young person who is inside me is growing strong each day by day.. Now it is the period of uncertainity..My doc said that until 18 months I would not be able to feel any movements inside... I desperately want to feel it now so that I could be sure that my young one is safe and sound...

Well.. I think its high time I learned the letters in that word "PATIENCE" more thoroughly...
My baby...I know,you might be reading each and every thoughts of mine and most of them would be bouncing to you... :) Good thing that you dont know reading and writing now.. :) :) Otherwise imagine what all bad words you would be telling me even before you utter the word "Mama" !!!!!!

I will teach you the meaning of everything you hear now when you are 18 years old and until then you are not even supposed to tell your Dad !!!! okay?? It would be a secret between us :):):)

Grow well my baby...I will wait for your first kick in another 4 weeks....Actually I wanted you to kick some one ;) But anyway guess Iwill have to do it now by myself until you come out. ;))

My Dancing baby

Today I got my official scan report after completion of 12 weeks (3 months) and it showed a happily moving baby with regular growth. For a moment I saw her upside down and then moving around as if she is really happy doing sommersaults inside her home. (Yeah.... Im officially calling my baby 'she' until I get to know otherwise.

She is now 5.5 cms in length and by the time the doctor clicked her pics, she was again doing sommer saults.. My doc did not get a clear shot let me tell you !!!!In my opinion this child of mine is going to be a real active one..Either an athlete or a dancer...Pray that she doesnt dance like her Dad !!!!
Hope she is good in Maths like her dad and not like me :))

3 months completed successfully

Well...our journey towards a new life is still going good and we completed 3 months of it successfully. Today my scan showed fully developed baby but still so small and it was moving when we were looking at her as if to acknowlegde that He/She knows that we are watching !!!!!!!!!!

It was almost like dancing :) ... May be it is showing off its dancing skills already.. As you know how good dancers her parents are... :) Well..Time will tell whether He/she would be following Michael Jackson's foot steps :-))

Too impatient....

Well....if you have read my earlier posts then you might be wondering what has happened to me to change this much...
Well....I have changed...may be for good. Im too impatient for anything and everything. I usually get frustrated easily... Like wise Im too impatient now to see how my baby would look like... But they say that I have to wait for 6 more months for that.....
When I started blogging about my new journey I did not know why I started it. But now I know why I am doing it. I want to let my child know about my feelings and thoughts flowing through me when I was carrying her/ him. I want her/him to understand the forming of a bond between a mom and a child right from the beginning....
I just have one prayer to God now... Let my child be healthy (physically and mentally) when it makes an appearence to this world.

My child, i love you so much ....you never made me sick or weak. If no one caution me to walk slowly I would never even know that you are slowly growing inside me. You are slowly becoming a part of my life and Im so anxious to meet you....

8 Weeks and going good....

Yesterday I got my scanning done and the doc said that my baby is now 8 weeks old. I dont know why but from the beginning I have a feeling that it is going to be a girl for me. If everything goes fine then we would be welcoming a baby girl for sure according to me.

I have done quite a few predictions in the past and am good at it... More or less like Paul the octopus ;)
Good thing is that Im among those few lucky people who does not have morning sickness. If I didnt get the test done last time when I did, I would never know also that Im carrying. I feel normal...well almost apart from the diminishing appetite part.

Its quite uncertain whether everything is normal until you get the scanning done. So after the scanning for few days you would be confident and then it is again back to the uncertainity. I guess it would be the routine until the baby movement starts...

I'm not thinking about it now a days..If god wishes this baby to be born then she/he will. I have left everything to him.Im just his servant and helping the baby to grow in my womb.....

Why did God Made Sisters?

He wanted you to have a best friend. They would be your best friends no matter what. You dont have to pretend with them since they know you inside out...You can take out your frustations on them..She feels bad at first but it will not last long. She will forgive you and will not have lasting grudges....

My sister is my best friend. I do not have any special friends other than her to share my thoughts with. I love you dearest sister. And please forgive me if I have hurt you with my words.Thank you for being there for me.

I wish I could be a better sister to you and support you whenever you are in need of a best friend....

A new journey.. a new life...

It was on Jul 31st 2010 ..a saturday... I got the most unexpected news in my life...that Im going to do one more role in my life ...as a MOM.

I do not know what a women feels when she hears this news..but the first thing which I felt when I heard it was "Oh my God!!! why now?". I had several dreams and aspirations in my life which I wanted to fulfil before becoming a mom and now everything has to wait. I am at the peak of my career and waiting to conquer more horizons...It was like a sudden brake to my career.

It took days for me to come out of this trauma. There were excitements all around, it really made me feel guilty. Everyone else are happy for you but you are not happy for yourself. Amidst of all these, I went to see my doctor whose office was full of anticipating Moms. I stayed away from all their Mom talks.. I was not interested in any of those.

I went in for my first scan and the doctor told me..see that is your baby... Something happened to me then at that moment...Maybe a maternal feeling. I dont know....

On my second visit to doctor she told me that she cannot locate Baby's heart and that I have to go for one more round of scanning....I felt dejected and sad...But the next scan showed me something wonderful. a small point sized heart beating so rapidly. I could not believe my eyes....It was a wonderful feeling...maybe worth risking my career for...

I will always love you and protect you my baby whenever you plan to make an entrance to this world..

Shining Star.............On the Top of the world

It was on a Friday 30th Jul 2010,when I got to know that my good work atlast got appreciated. It was completely an unexpected recognition from my manager and the first of a kind in my entire career. For those who hear about this ,it might look silly but to me it was like getting a life time achievement award. Im grateful to my Manager Srini for this and would remember this moment through out my life...

This is my 3rd company in whole of 7 years of career. I slogged so much in my earlier organization putting lots of effort. All I got was a demotion and some fantasticly wrapped words which meant more or less "you are good for nothing and you are a loser.Please get out of here." I never understood where I went wrong. I was dedicated to work and gave my 100% to it and still it was not enough. Thank God ...I quit when I did. I was demotivated and angry at myself for disbelieving in myself and God. Atlast he was the one who showed me the path to my new office, a place where I never would have thought of going.

The day after I quit from my previous employer (without having any offer in my hand) I walked in to the doors of my would be new office. As an impatient one, I wanted to go home after seeing the long queue of applicants. Still I waited for a bit may be due to some inner voice. What happened next was like a slow motion picture. They called me inside and took my interview which I answered confidently then it was the next round and finally HR telling me that we would contact you in few days with your offer letter.I was shocked....Then,at that moment, I knew one thing for sure.."God will not support any injustice and he loves you". Thank you Lord for being there for me..

Memoirz - Email address

I remember the first time I browsed the internet for creating an email Id. It was in the year 1999 and it took more than half and hour to create an email Id as the browser was too slow.....
I still remember the day my friend Manesh helped me in creating one for myself. Little did I knew that it would become my identity later on...... Pic of my college to the left.

It was in my college's browsing center I went for creating my email Id. We had to wait for our turn due to the huge rush of students waiting to check their mails. I still remember my first email id ..it was mail2lechu@england.com :-) I guess that site does not allow private emails anymore.

I was so happy with my email Id that I went home and boasted to my parents that they can now send me mails through internet. Little did i knew that they should also have an email ID and also that WE SHOULD have INTERNET Connection at home :-))))

New office new faces

I joined to my new office on Jan 2010. My first day reminded me of the same fears and anticipation I had when I first joined School. This time I did not have my mom and Dad with me when I stepped into this new world.

This trepidation you feel when you step into an unknown or unfamiliar surroundings is the same everytime when you are in a situation like this. My first few days went smoothly. I was trying my best to fit in. Slowly I started relaxing and it helped in getting to know new people.

Within short time I made a bunch of friends.. It is the same everytime.. Making friends are really easy but retaining them is tough. I'm really bad at that. I do not like to take friendship to home since I have my best friend at home.. i.e my husband. So my office friends stay only at office. I do not want to lose my best friend anytime...

They say marriage changes every thing.. Yeah it did change me ...I guess it is for good...Im more mellow than before.. :)