Saturday, April 9, 2011

Journey so far..... we are one and a half month old...

First of all ..Welcome my darling to this world !!!!!! It was a small boy who was kicking all this time and I thought you might be a girl... You proved to be as impatient as your Mom when you decided to make an entry to this world almost one month prior to your actual date and now here you are ...a small cute little boy who brought joy to our lives.. Let me tell you what happened after that last post on feb 1st... Everything was going smoothly (or I believed so ) till we went to the routine checkup on 7th Feb. Doctor was tensed to see that the water which covers you (amniotic fluid) has become less all of a sudden and that means trouble in Captial T. Moreover I had light swelling on my feet..Doctor advised immediate admission to the hospital where they can do a thorough checkup.. I was worried so was everyone. But we thought nothing about it as it was only a 2 day admission to the hospital. But on the second day in hosptial doctor told us that it is not safe to go back home at this stage since the liquid is less and that would mean that baby should be taken out anytime. My BP went slightly higher hearing all these and so did sugar level. But we managed some how..didnt we baby??

13th Feb: Junior doctors found that blood flow to you from my body has become less and that further check up is needed. I felt you moved little less compared to the other days. I was rushed to labor room where they did more tests. I even went out to another clinic to get a second opinion. By then doctors advised me not to get up from bed. Sitting in chair was out of question !!! It was more or less confirmed that you might make an entrance to this world on Valentine's day!!!! I was planning to name you Valeee :) :)

14th Feb: A miracle happened while I was lying in the scanning room. I was praying to all Gods to give me some good news and so did everyone else. Doctor did the scanning and told that it is really amazing to see that there is considerable improvement in my condition and that we can wait longer to take you out. By then you were 34 weeks.. We stayed all the time in hospital and went through all routine scans till Feb 20th.

On Feb 20th doctor told that baby stopped growing in the womb as there is no space and due to irregular blood flow. It would be better if we take the baby out at the earliest. She then told me to be ready for the C-Section for the next day.

20th Feb: I was in labor room the entire day. I was wishing to see your Dad or your grandmother so much but had the bad fortune to see some relatives who jumped the hospital rules to see me. Let me tell you ..I was least impressed. Here I was wishing for a familiar face and I was shown some least impressive faces. That night Sleep evaded me and I was constantly listening for your heart beat and movements. I wished I could talk to you then... I was feeling all alone in that dark labor room. There was a duty nurse whom I have to thank for as she gave me confidence to face the operation. I would never forget her smiling face or her words of confidence. May god bless her..

21st Feb: The d-day has come. I was told to wear a gown and to tie my hair in both the sides as pig tails :) I was looking silly let me tell you...I was wheeled to the Operation theatre by 7.45AM. I could not control when I saw my Mom, your Dad and my dad waiting for me in front of the theatre. I controlled my tears then. I was feeling like I was going to an unknown place where all around you are strangers and that your life depends on them. The only familiar face was that of my doctor who was my Mom's classmate. That was my only consolation. When I was lying on that Operation table looking at those huge lights overhead, I was feeling whether I would make out of here alive... Operation procedures started all of a sudden at 8.15AM and all the talking stopped in the theatre. I was anesthetized wais down and they held a curtain in front of me so that I won’t see what is happening down there.. All of a sudden I heard a cry so loud that it brought me tears.. I was completely in tears when they told me that "Its a Boy"!!!!! Here I was waiting to hold you after 8 months of waiting but had to give you off to doctors for prenatal care. I could not even touch you.... The first thing my doctor told when she took you out was " He is really an active child" Then did not have to make you cry since you came in to this world by crying out loud... Love you my baby... Please grow up fast...It is almost 1 and a half months since you were born and every day is a wonder to me as you learn new things and you teach me new things.. I have lots to write but will write it down soon .. I dont want to forget these events which changed my life for ever....