Aditya…

We named you Aditya for the Sun God. Searching for a name for you was a big task. Your Dad had "Tejasvi" in his mind but when I googled it (Thanks to Google) it turned out to be a Girl's name. So inorder to avoid a lashing from our own son when he grows up we turned to other names. Your Dad was against the name Aditya since all those persons with their names starting in 'A' would go first in line for each and everything. Like exams, Viva,interviews etc ;)

In the end we did not find any other good names and hence named you Aditya and that too thinking about the characters we both know in our lives who has the same name. Luckily all Adityas we know of are harmless :)

Today on July 1st you turned on your back first time on your own....I was soooo happy and proud. I was worried sick since your child therapist told that you have slightly Stiffened muscles on your legs. But the way in which you are moving your hands and legs,no one would think that you have stiff muscles...

Darling baby,you are a feast for the eyes.....Your smile would capture everyone's heart and your dad is already worried that his market would go down when you come to age !!!! :D

Always keep a smiling face and face this world..... I wish you all the good luck in this world..

Journey so far..... we are one and a half month old...

First of all ..Welcome my darling to this world !!!!!! It was a small boy who was kicking all this time and I thought you might be a girl... You proved to be as impatient as your Mom when you decided to make an entry to this world almost one month prior to your actual date and now here you are ...a small cute little boy who brought joy to our lives.. Let me tell you what happened after that last post on feb 1st... Everything was going smoothly (or I believed so ) till we went to the routine checkup on 7th Feb. Doctor was tensed to see that the water which covers you (amniotic fluid) has become less all of a sudden and that means trouble in Captial T. Moreover I had light swelling on my feet..Doctor advised immediate admission to the hospital where they can do a thorough checkup.. I was worried so was everyone. But we thought nothing about it as it was only a 2 day admission to the hospital. But on the second day in hosptial doctor told us that it is not safe to go back home at this stage since the liquid is less and that would mean that baby should be taken out anytime. My BP went slightly higher hearing all these and so did sugar level. But we managed some how..didnt we baby??

13th Feb: Junior doctors found that blood flow to you from my body has become less and that further check up is needed. I felt you moved little less compared to the other days. I was rushed to labor room where they did more tests. I even went out to another clinic to get a second opinion. By then doctors advised me not to get up from bed. Sitting in chair was out of question !!! It was more or less confirmed that you might make an entrance to this world on Valentine's day!!!! I was planning to name you Valeee :) :)

14th Feb: A miracle happened while I was lying in the scanning room. I was praying to all Gods to give me some good news and so did everyone else. Doctor did the scanning and told that it is really amazing to see that there is considerable improvement in my condition and that we can wait longer to take you out. By then you were 34 weeks.. We stayed all the time in hospital and went through all routine scans till Feb 20th.

On Feb 20th doctor told that baby stopped growing in the womb as there is no space and due to irregular blood flow. It would be better if we take the baby out at the earliest. She then told me to be ready for the C-Section for the next day.

20th Feb: I was in labor room the entire day. I was wishing to see your Dad or your grandmother so much but had the bad fortune to see some relatives who jumped the hospital rules to see me. Let me tell you ..I was least impressed. Here I was wishing for a familiar face and I was shown some least impressive faces. That night Sleep evaded me and I was constantly listening for your heart beat and movements. I wished I could talk to you then... I was feeling all alone in that dark labor room. There was a duty nurse whom I have to thank for as she gave me confidence to face the operation. I would never forget her smiling face or her words of confidence. May god bless her..

21st Feb: The d-day has come. I was told to wear a gown and to tie my hair in both the sides as pig tails :) I was looking silly let me tell you...I was wheeled to the Operation theatre by 7.45AM. I could not control when I saw my Mom, your Dad and my dad waiting for me in front of the theatre. I controlled my tears then. I was feeling like I was going to an unknown place where all around you are strangers and that your life depends on them. The only familiar face was that of my doctor who was my Mom's classmate. That was my only consolation. When I was lying on that Operation table looking at those huge lights overhead, I was feeling whether I would make out of here alive... Operation procedures started all of a sudden at 8.15AM and all the talking stopped in the theatre. I was anesthetized wais down and they held a curtain in front of me so that I won’t see what is happening down there.. All of a sudden I heard a cry so loud that it brought me tears.. I was completely in tears when they told me that "Its a Boy"!!!!! Here I was waiting to hold you after 8 months of waiting but had to give you off to doctors for prenatal care. I could not even touch you.... The first thing my doctor told when she took you out was " He is really an active child" Then did not have to make you cry since you came in to this world by crying out loud... Love you my baby... Please grow up fast...It is almost 1 and a half months since you were born and every day is a wonder to me as you learn new things and you teach me new things.. I have lots to write but will write it down soon .. I dont want to forget these events which changed my life for ever....

A knitted cap for you !!!!

Yes my dear, your mom suddenly became a domesticated mom and as it shows in a typical indian movie, i took up a pair of knitting needles and started knitting. At First it was a shapeless mess, later it was turning out to be a table mat in round shape. And it struck me..I can make a cap out of it !!!!
Slowly I started the knitting in that route and Voila!!!! a funny cap was born..Im really sorry that you will have to wear it and not to complain but this is my first gift for you darling....I hope you will like it :) :)
And you dad says hi...He is missing you so much now a days as he is in Bangalore and we are at my place......
We love you so much and dont plan your entrance till it is time for you to come out.... We would be here to protect you darling...

Im bored !!!!

Dear baby

Today I felt like kicking someone as I was feeling really bored... I wonder how you get over your boredome... Oh Yes!!! You kick me !!!!!! Now I got it.. Whenever you feel bored you are kicking me. Just because you are inside and Im outside means you can kick me anytime mind you!!!
I will take my revenge when you come out...
I'm on high protein Diet as Doc says that you are on the smaller side.. all those kicking is giving you great excercise I believe and thats why maybe you are not putting on weight.. Please grow up fast....
Love you little darling.. Waiting patiently..Ahem !!! to see you :) :)

Doc's appointment for 32 weeks

To be frank, Im not sure whether im in 32nd week or in 31st week. Anyways I think Im somewhere in the middle of 31 and 32. Doc took a look at my baby today and she thinks baby might make an early appearance to this world than the expected date. But there are no causes for concerns. Delivery might be pre-poned by 1 or 2 weeks.
Maybe baby also got my impatience :) :) And he/ She is little small in size. It may have come from the dad's side of family where in everyone are underweight including my hubby. He was a small baby and still is underweight for his height.
Im supposed to eat more now and that is one thing which I dont have any problems with :) But exercise.. that is something which I hate doing. But for you baby ,Im going for walking also. . So you better take good care of me in my old days.. I have been eating all sorts of veggies which I hate just for you !! And I have not had a chocolate in past 2 -3 months !!!!!!!!
Love you my baby :) :) It is quite funny when you run around when I try to catch you to hear your heart beat using a stethoscope. Last night I and your Grand dad tried catching you and still you managed to escape. I will catch u soon... Till that time you run around :) :)

Its 32 weeks !!!!!

As lazy as I am, I wonder how i managed to log back in...But still the baby kicks and news makes me want ot write and share his/ her story...

I feel that my baby responds really well to her/ his dad.. whenever he is around I feel the sharp jabs and when he talks he gets the kicks as well.

As I entered to my third trimester, I stopped working. The best part was that ,it was not because of my baby that I had to stop working but my project work got over at the same time when I was planning to take my break.. It all coincided perfectly that I would never have the feeling that because of my baby I had to leave something which I love the most. God is great !!!!!

Today I reached my mom's place where I would be staying for next 4 months..I miss my dear friend my husband a lot ...I feel that the baby also misses him. whenever i think of him i feel the kick !!! and when he calls the kicks are ever sharper..

Im just waiting to start the new life with just 3 of us...Praying for nothing untoward to happen...

Changes Changes all around !!!

Dear Baby... I will tell you one secret today. Your dad never was the one to get tied to a marriage. He did not want to get married just for the reason that his kids would climb on his bike and scratch the bike's petrol tank :):) !!!!!!!
After 7 yrs of meeting him he never changed this attitude until today. Today we were talking of how to take you out in a two wheeler when you are growing up and guess what he told me.. Me and my kid will go in my bike and I dont care even if he / she scratches the petrol tank!!!!!!
His bike is his first wife and I come second and to hear him talking like this was a real miracle :)
He is already planning for your two wheeler license and your adventure trips with him...

We are eagerly waiting for your little one who is going to change our lives forever. We ( I and your day) do not think much about future and get worried about it unnecessarily and hence we are really looking forward to welcome this change in your life which you would be bringing.

Just praying that you would come to us safely so that we can show our gratitude to you for coming into our lives. you have already brought so many changes for us and we are hoping for more good changes....

23 weeks 2 days .....We are sailing smoothly

My Last scan report was a minor cause of concern as it told that my baby does not have enough space in his/ her home to do its antics . I was worried about it and my doctor advised several set of tablets and nutrients.

Today I got the wonderful news that everything is going fine and that my baby is growing perfectly and no need of further worries or tensions...Yay!!! Baby we did it!!! We both ate well and took our medications correctly..

Now all we have to do is to wait for that day to meet each other... You should have seen your papa's face when he felt your first kick !!!! He loved it..

Every day I hear your papa talking to you and he says he wont involve mummy in these chit chats and that it is secret between both of you :):) He is ready to spoil you the moment you come out. He says spoiling is my job and repairing is mom's job...

Love you both very much !!!!! Grow well young one.. Im getting really impatient now to see you :)

My karate kid started Kick boxing - 21 weeks

It was few days after I completed 18 weeks, I felt the first flutter ..At first i did not really recognize it..Then it happened again.. I was stunned...My colleague who was sitting next to me was looking at me oddly seeing my stunned expression :) I told him " My baby kicked me !!!!" I could not control my happiness....
It was a great feeling...I felt an unexplainable joy and proudness.....It wasa great moment and I would remember it forever....
Now by each day kicks are becoming a regular thing and growing stronger... oh my baby you dont know how much your dad want to feel your kick.. so when you become a bit stronger i will let you kick him :))

You should have seen his expression when he listened to your first heart beat..It was priceless. You gave us a scare many a times and we had to rush to scanning center. Waiting for our turn to get scanned..long hours like eternity ..And when our chance came we were praying for you my little darling...And then when we hear your heart beat we cannot express our joy :):) it almost brought tears to my eyes!!

I cant wait to see you dear!!!!! Grow strong..Eat well like your mummy :)

18 weeks..........

After a series of doctor's visits , I came back to bangalore on Sunday 17th Oct. Doctors (well.. I have 2 to 3 doctors for me as they are all my Mom'z friends ) explained to me what to do and what not to do. They did the routine scanning and pronounced that my baby is growing strong and without any problems..I was praying for that only...
My family said that I should be thinking of good things now...This would mean that I should shut my mouth when someone jumps infront of our car while driving,and also no scoldings to Auto Rickshaw Drivers who behaves meanly and so on....God!!!!! It is really difficult...I know that my baby is studying each and every words I have uttered till now and would use it against me first :)
In any time now,I should feel the first movement of my darling...Waiting eagerly now..They said it would be a flutter but I know it would be a full swing kick for me which says "Mama..Im here..so you better watch what you say and what you eat!!!! Make me strong and I will kick you" :) :)

3 and a half months......(14 weeks)

Some times Im scared.....Scared as to whether my baby is fine or not....As I crossed 3rd month, all early problems vanished just like that and my appetite returned to normal.Now Im worried why I do not have those difficulties..Because that way I was knowing that this young person who is inside me is growing strong each day by day.. Now it is the period of uncertainity..My doc said that until 18 months I would not be able to feel any movements inside... I desperately want to feel it now so that I could be sure that my young one is safe and sound...

Well.. I think its high time I learned the letters in that word "PATIENCE" more thoroughly...
My baby...I know,you might be reading each and every thoughts of mine and most of them would be bouncing to you... :) Good thing that you dont know reading and writing now.. :) :) Otherwise imagine what all bad words you would be telling me even before you utter the word "Mama" !!!!!!

I will teach you the meaning of everything you hear now when you are 18 years old and until then you are not even supposed to tell your Dad !!!! okay?? It would be a secret between us :):):)

Grow well my baby...I will wait for your first kick in another 4 weeks....Actually I wanted you to kick some one ;) But anyway guess Iwill have to do it now by myself until you come out. ;))

My Dancing baby

Today I got my official scan report after completion of 12 weeks (3 months) and it showed a happily moving baby with regular growth. For a moment I saw her upside down and then moving around as if she is really happy doing sommersaults inside her home. (Yeah.... Im officially calling my baby 'she' until I get to know otherwise.

She is now 5.5 cms in length and by the time the doctor clicked her pics, she was again doing sommer saults.. My doc did not get a clear shot let me tell you !!!!In my opinion this child of mine is going to be a real active one..Either an athlete or a dancer...Pray that she doesnt dance like her Dad !!!!
Hope she is good in Maths like her dad and not like me :))

3 months completed successfully

Well...our journey towards a new life is still going good and we completed 3 months of it successfully. Today my scan showed fully developed baby but still so small and it was moving when we were looking at her as if to acknowlegde that He/She knows that we are watching !!!!!!!!!!

It was almost like dancing :) ... May be it is showing off its dancing skills already.. As you know how good dancers her parents are... :) Well..Time will tell whether He/she would be following Michael Jackson's foot steps :-))

Too impatient....

Well....if you have read my earlier posts then you might be wondering what has happened to me to change this much...
Well....I have changed...may be for good. Im too impatient for anything and everything. I usually get frustrated easily... Like wise Im too impatient now to see how my baby would look like... But they say that I have to wait for 6 more months for that.....
When I started blogging about my new journey I did not know why I started it. But now I know why I am doing it. I want to let my child know about my feelings and thoughts flowing through me when I was carrying her/ him. I want her/him to understand the forming of a bond between a mom and a child right from the beginning....
I just have one prayer to God now... Let my child be healthy (physically and mentally) when it makes an appearence to this world.

My child, i love you so much ....you never made me sick or weak. If no one caution me to walk slowly I would never even know that you are slowly growing inside me. You are slowly becoming a part of my life and Im so anxious to meet you....

8 Weeks and going good....

Yesterday I got my scanning done and the doc said that my baby is now 8 weeks old. I dont know why but from the beginning I have a feeling that it is going to be a girl for me. If everything goes fine then we would be welcoming a baby girl for sure according to me.

I have done quite a few predictions in the past and am good at it... More or less like Paul the octopus ;)
Good thing is that Im among those few lucky people who does not have morning sickness. If I didnt get the test done last time when I did, I would never know also that Im carrying. I feel normal...well almost apart from the diminishing appetite part.

Its quite uncertain whether everything is normal until you get the scanning done. So after the scanning for few days you would be confident and then it is again back to the uncertainity. I guess it would be the routine until the baby movement starts...

I'm not thinking about it now a days..If god wishes this baby to be born then she/he will. I have left everything to him.Im just his servant and helping the baby to grow in my womb.....

Why did God Made Sisters?

He wanted you to have a best friend. They would be your best friends no matter what. You dont have to pretend with them since they know you inside out...You can take out your frustations on them..She feels bad at first but it will not last long. She will forgive you and will not have lasting grudges....

My sister is my best friend. I do not have any special friends other than her to share my thoughts with. I love you dearest sister. And please forgive me if I have hurt you with my words.Thank you for being there for me.

I wish I could be a better sister to you and support you whenever you are in need of a best friend....

A new journey.. a new life...

It was on Jul 31st 2010 ..a saturday... I got the most unexpected news in my life...that Im going to do one more role in my life ...as a MOM.

I do not know what a women feels when she hears this news..but the first thing which I felt when I heard it was "Oh my God!!! why now?". I had several dreams and aspirations in my life which I wanted to fulfil before becoming a mom and now everything has to wait. I am at the peak of my career and waiting to conquer more horizons...It was like a sudden brake to my career.

It took days for me to come out of this trauma. There were excitements all around, it really made me feel guilty. Everyone else are happy for you but you are not happy for yourself. Amidst of all these, I went to see my doctor whose office was full of anticipating Moms. I stayed away from all their Mom talks.. I was not interested in any of those.

I went in for my first scan and the doctor told me..see that is your baby... Something happened to me then at that moment...Maybe a maternal feeling. I dont know....

On my second visit to doctor she told me that she cannot locate Baby's heart and that I have to go for one more round of scanning....I felt dejected and sad...But the next scan showed me something wonderful. a small point sized heart beating so rapidly. I could not believe my eyes....It was a wonderful feeling...maybe worth risking my career for...

I will always love you and protect you my baby whenever you plan to make an entrance to this world..

Shining Star.............On the Top of the world

It was on a Friday 30th Jul 2010,when I got to know that my good work atlast got appreciated. It was completely an unexpected recognition from my manager and the first of a kind in my entire career. For those who hear about this ,it might look silly but to me it was like getting a life time achievement award. Im grateful to my Manager Srini for this and would remember this moment through out my life...

This is my 3rd company in whole of 7 years of career. I slogged so much in my earlier organization putting lots of effort. All I got was a demotion and some fantasticly wrapped words which meant more or less "you are good for nothing and you are a loser.Please get out of here." I never understood where I went wrong. I was dedicated to work and gave my 100% to it and still it was not enough. Thank God ...I quit when I did. I was demotivated and angry at myself for disbelieving in myself and God. Atlast he was the one who showed me the path to my new office, a place where I never would have thought of going.

The day after I quit from my previous employer (without having any offer in my hand) I walked in to the doors of my would be new office. As an impatient one, I wanted to go home after seeing the long queue of applicants. Still I waited for a bit may be due to some inner voice. What happened next was like a slow motion picture. They called me inside and took my interview which I answered confidently then it was the next round and finally HR telling me that we would contact you in few days with your offer letter.I was shocked....Then,at that moment, I knew one thing for sure.."God will not support any injustice and he loves you". Thank you Lord for being there for me..

Memoirz - Email address

I remember the first time I browsed the internet for creating an email Id. It was in the year 1999 and it took more than half and hour to create an email Id as the browser was too slow.....
I still remember the day my friend Manesh helped me in creating one for myself. Little did I knew that it would become my identity later on...... Pic of my college to the left.

It was in my college's browsing center I went for creating my email Id. We had to wait for our turn due to the huge rush of students waiting to check their mails. I still remember my first email id ..it was mail2lechu@england.com :-) I guess that site does not allow private emails anymore.

I was so happy with my email Id that I went home and boasted to my parents that they can now send me mails through internet. Little did i knew that they should also have an email ID and also that WE SHOULD have INTERNET Connection at home :-))))

New office new faces

I joined to my new office on Jan 2010. My first day reminded me of the same fears and anticipation I had when I first joined School. This time I did not have my mom and Dad with me when I stepped into this new world.

This trepidation you feel when you step into an unknown or unfamiliar surroundings is the same everytime when you are in a situation like this. My first few days went smoothly. I was trying my best to fit in. Slowly I started relaxing and it helped in getting to know new people.

Within short time I made a bunch of friends.. It is the same everytime.. Making friends are really easy but retaining them is tough. I'm really bad at that. I do not like to take friendship to home since I have my best friend at home.. i.e my husband. So my office friends stay only at office. I do not want to lose my best friend anytime...

They say marriage changes every thing.. Yeah it did change me ...I guess it is for good...Im more mellow than before.. :)